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Two years for Michael and I tomorrow. I'm really excited about celebrating it...
<3
amazing boy.
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[12 Nov 2006|06:21am] |
I really love my 4 friends here... seriously, they make my life here so amazing.
(Kyirsty, Marissa, Heather and Naomi).
I definitely think that I won't stay at Sage for more than 2 years; just to get my associates. But if I can't get enough money from another college, I might be stuck here.
I'm scared, to be honest - but I just have to take this whole college thing a step at a time. It's not even the classes really, they're normal, but its just this weird atmosphere... I can't even explain it.
Sage is really awkward and I feel like I just don't belong or something. REALLY LAME. And its not like I can't be myself, because I can, but I don't know.. I feel like I'm in fucking high school. Stupid pranks are being pulled and everyone is being accountable for and just a lot of the people living in the resident halls are just so fucked up and weird! (Of course not all of them... but there sure are some fucking creeps).
It highly disappoints me that I really felt that when I came here for a tour and the overnight that this was going to be the best choice for me. I'll see what happens, I guess... :(
I haven't got terribly fatter since I've been here, but I've definitely gained a couple pounds and all I can fucking say is that I do not need that shit.. I'm gonna start to really try as hard as I can to just fucking eat better, feel better about myself.
ps not being able to find cute clothes because your goddamn thighs and hips are ginormous, it makes you want to use scissors to cut them. (want, not going to happen).
weiners.
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[01 Nov 2006|04:53pm] |
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For one, my halloween sucked. The pictures I am posting was the only fun part of the night... I didnt even get to show off my costume really.
I really had a shitty day.
And from now on, I will always have a set plan for halloween - I've never not had something to do. :(
( 80's girls )
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[31 Oct 2006|11:54pm] |
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I wanna go home really bad.
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[27 Oct 2006|04:52am] |
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Um I want to fucking pull out my hair. :(
GOV'T Midterm tomorrow.
Math test.
Sociology test.
:'(
Michael's old really awesome friend's dad died yesterday..
He's not well at all and he's getting a sore throat.
I feel like shit.
My eyes have been fucking burning lately for no apparent reason.
I want to sleep. I can't.
I've been studying for two days straight (got all my other homework done so I could) and I feel worthless..
I need an effing study buddy.
jesus. a nice hug with a few tears shed would be effing amazing right now.
oh and ps... my friend told me to sign up for relay for life (walking for cancer thing) and um yeah I'm stuck fucking going with lame ass people because SHE'S NOT GOING... SHE'S GOING HOME WITH HER BOYFRIEND. kill me. No I can not go back on that, either.
Um great weekend ahead of me.
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[10 Oct 2006|11:50am] |
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time for the giney doctor.
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[02 Oct 2006|09:58pm] |
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farts smell like dirty, rotten eggs.
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[26 Sep 2006|12:58am] |
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"Shut your face, Jen."
"I'm sorry, I didn't know it was open."
p.s. I finally finished a paper that I meant to start at 8:00pm. Now its 1:03am. The only thing I had done until 12am was the heading... haha I rock.
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[18 Sep 2006|12:31am] |
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ITS TEARIN' UP MY HEART WHEN I'M WITH YOU. AND WE ARE APART I FEEL IT TOO. AND NO MATTER WHAT I DO I FEEL THE PAAAAAAIIIIIN WITH OR WITHOUT YOU.
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[14 Sep 2006|11:07pm] |
SITTIN' ON TOP OF THE WORLD... brandy and mase.
thank you.
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[12 Sep 2006|02:17am] |
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God dammit... now I can't sleep. I went to bed too early ... I'm used to staying up late now and dammit to hell, I can't get back to sleep.
and it doesn't help I am really hungry now.
mother of GOD!
<3
yay. um no.
yes so albany is fun!
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[26 Aug 2006|06:10pm] |
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After watching 3958687 episodes of What Not to Wear... I think of a bazillion things that would look good on people. Women: what the hell are you wearing?! Men: you can do so much better than that old shirt!
haha i love TLC.
<3
...all my friends are gone. i cried. :(!
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[24 Aug 2006|01:25pm] |
My BFFs are all leaving. I still have a week.
Mike Mass and Colleen: today.
Kelsey: tomorrow.
Chrissy: saturday.
:(!
I hate goodbyes.
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[21 Aug 2006|12:25am] |
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sooooo! I hung out with Damien, Jessica and Gavin tonight - it was fun. We had pizza and watched ITS GRINCH NIGHT! ... fun times.
college in about a week.
I am leaving on the 1st which happens to be my birthday.
FUCK IS TILL OWE JOSHY HIS PRESENT!
moving on... its been hitting me hard lately that my best friends are all going to different parts of the country and its scary! I WANT to say goodbye to all of them before they leave... i hate goodbyes.
goodnight.
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[08 Aug 2006|10:16pm] |
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Definitely going to sleep now.. I went to the city today, ALL day.
It was wonderful; especially to see my friends from rhinebeck that I will miss more than anyone. I love them.
There are many spots that hardcore smell like poop though.. while walking that is.
Effing heat and gross smells. Garbage and shit combined.
moving on... I'm achy, I smell, and I am going to six flags tomorrow.
I need sleep.
p.s. Wewent to Flushing, Queens which was hardcore chinese.. because Katherine (chinese) goes there quite often and knows the area well. She took us to the mall there that like sold only things for chinese people.. HENCE effing clothes that would only fit the thin asians.
screw my chunky life.
GOODNIGHT!!!!
DEFINITELY SAW AN EFFING SCARF.. A SCARF FOR $850! (SAKS) I felt DIRTY even being there.
god I am poor.
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i like your butt.
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[01 Aug 2006|07:12pm] |
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It was deathly hot today, I can't even stand.
Mike has a really bad fever/flu. :(
I went into a pool today that was 90 degrees.. but of course my uncle put a 50 degree watered hose in the pool to cool it down, thank God.
Umm... I want hugs. Lots.
weiners.
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[25 Jul 2006|11:50pm] |
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I gauged my ears to six.
..so far.
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[21 Jul 2006|12:08am] |
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Ehh definitely took off of work for a week.. but I am off the schedule for about two because I work every thursday, saturday and sunday and occasionally other days.. but then I additionally asked off for this weekend so I could go away to the lake hence my boss just felt it would be easier to say "screw it, you're off the schedule, I dont want to deal with you."
Moving on.. My summer has been going preeeetty smoothly. I can not complain at all. Sure I stay home during the day sometimes finding myself cleaning an abundance of places around my house; yes random. But overall, this is becoming a decent summer before I go away to college.
Am I scared? Of effing course. Honestly, I don't even know where to start. Shopping I'm assuming but where do I even start there?! Garbage cans? Q-tips? Sheets? Hangers? Ahh confusing.
I just keep telling myself "Oh, you have like at least a month left to get all this shit together" but dammit its going to come quicker than I will ever expect.
I'm going to miss a lot of things when I go away and I keep saying "You're gonna be back a lot." Which indeed I will, I can see it... but I also know I don't always want to go home. I just hope Mike offers to come hang out with me more than I think he will. He just bought a 1995 jeep and it's in good shape for what it is, but I just hope it gets him from place a to b, but also to come hang out with people I've met where I am. I seriously want him to kind of "be a part of me," so I'll say, when I go away. I want this experience to be ALL for me but I also want him to realize that getting away from something that is so familiar is something oh so spectacular. Sure I've never actually been away anywhere by myself, having to hardcore meet new people.. but I have faith and I hope he trusts me.
Which is another point, I really hope he can just trust me. And deep down KNOW that I will not do anything stupid. NOT even "some fucking drunken episode." Thats not me. I like, I LOVE you.. I wouldn't do that to you. And if something happens between us, it won't be because of some guy... at least for me. Some girl for him - we'll see. But I sure as hell hope not. That is another thing I have high hopes AND faith in: Our relationship. Man I am so cool... no I'm a pussy son-of-a-bitch that hasn't written in her livejournal in more than like 2 weeks and a lot longer before that, so I need to just bitch my brains out.
Venting is quite a relief.
I love life.
And I hope in my feild of interest I keep saying that.
cheer up kids, things'll work themselves out.
hmm.
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